The Devotion of the Devoured
How co-creating vore & size fantasies becomes a ritual of power, surrender, and transformation.
Exploring vore and size difference with others is like the co-creation of myth between play partners. These fetishes has an exciting quality of extending beyond the overtly erotic and sexual. They can touch onto themes of sacrifice, spiritual surrender, awe, union, mortality, rebirth, and service to a greater purpose. In role playing with a play partner — especially the more dark aspects of the fetishes — a scene can fulfill sexual, psychological, and intellectual needs all together. This aspect is what I am adoring the most about vore and size difference. It satisfies so many desires.
My earliest vore and size fantasies always were kept private. Even when I eventually began to role play online and for in-person games, I never was mentioning my true fantasies. Though sometime themes became sexual, they were staying ‘mainstream’. No, anything vore or size related was something I only would engage with alone.
My mind was often my only source of arousal. So my fantasies was becoming complex but deeply self-centred. The entire story was entirely focused onto my experience as a one devouring or being fed human sacrifices. In my isolated ways, I never once was considering what it could be like to be prey. Certainly never that anyone would want to be the prey. So, thinking myself alone in this type of sexual desires, I assumed that predator was the only path to pleasure. The same was true for size. I only could see being larger, not small.
Eventually I did discover that I was not alone in my fantasies at all. At first I was very surprised knowing there is ones wanting to be smaller than another, even at scales I had not considered sexually. But more surprising to me was the ones desiring to be eaten. Such is the mindset of a one who is purely a giantess and a predator. Yet, the more I was exploring the fetishes online, the more the other point of view was making sense to me. I could not relate, but at least I could see the draw.
It was not until I began to explore erotic role play and read stories that I really could grasp the view of a tiny or of prey. It was not the sexual side of it that was making this click for me. It was the mythic understanding. Which quickly I tied to my personal interests in philosophy and spirituality. Suddenly I understood the desire to be more small or to be devoured as a process of ultimate surrender.
My most satisfying role play experiences have followed an arc that is similar to that of myths. Where myself and my partner each expresses our side of the story in a dance of words. It starts with something drawing our two characters together. Followed by a unexpected often supernatural shift or realization that begins the true interplay between dominance and submission. Then comes a mixture of sexual play and pure power play. This leads into crossing a threshold where the submissive is put into mortal danger (through my size or devouring them). They are then transported into another state of being before undergoing a physical transformation (often fatally). Finally, there is a sort of rebirth. The submissive’s initial sacrifice to my pleasure becomes a new form of service, where they continue to offer something to me despite their demise. Thus am I also transformed, but continuing to live.
While I am enjoying lighter role plays, it is the darker ones that truly excites me. These go into the full scope of arousal, fear, pain, pleasure, sacrifice, death, and transformation. When a play partner is succumbing to their end within a scene, their true purpose is revealed and achieved. Not to pleasure me in life, but in giving their life to my pleasure. There is nothing more erotic than to receive (or give) such complete devotion. For me, there is no other fetishes that achieves this so beautifully as vore and size play.